They tell you not to [but I did it anyway].

Two weeks since I left my day job to focus on more creative endeavors. Two things I’ve noticed:

1.There are parts of myself returning that I have missed.

And b) [GUH] there is so. much. to learn!

Up until two weeks ago I was a corporate data analyst downtown. It was a fine job with some great people, and not one I regret. The understanding of data and analytical processes has a significant influence on my socio-political perspectives and my artistic work. Without 7 years sorting through databases and aggregating spreadsheets I probably wouldn’t be doing the creative work I am at the moment. None-the-less, the time came to check out, and, after a LOT of encouragement from many near and dear ones, we finally made the decision to make some changes. So I packed up my cubicle. And I walked out the door. Two Fridays ago.

The last two weeks have been spent in a crash course of professional arts. After all this time researching exhibition possibilities, city ordinances, non-profit partnerships, financial models, crowdfunding, arts organizations, and one really great modern dance performance, I see why creators need all the help they can get. More than 90% of my time has been spent on research, and budgets for electronic music projects quickly add up. Two weeks feels like two lifetimes ago! And there’s still a lot to learn.

That doesn’t sound like much fun, but honestly it has been it’s own form of saving grace. Turns out that having enough compassion for myself to pursue a fundamental part of who I am (even the administrative parts of it) allows me to have more compassion for others (shocker, right?). Allowing myself to exist differently has helped me allow others to exist differently. I think I knew that…but it got lost in the hustle somewhere.

I hope in the coming months that can be shared in both words and music. I have a few projects that I’m working on at the moment. I programmed a piece called ‘Adagio [for River and People]’ several years ago – most of my time lately has been spent working toward public installations of that piece. If it all comes together, my goal is to make it a multi-city touring event. I’m also working on a short-film score. I won’t be able to share that one for a while at the request of the film maker, but at some point I will be able to. And also a differently interactive piece (perhaps one that’s a bit more thoughtfully interactive than the previous ones). Some things to look forward to, I think.

I would like to have a new work – or at least a part of one – to share with you all right now, but unfortunately that’s not where I am at the moment. That’s probably me being bad at social media, so I apologize if you simply are enduring my incompetence :) But what I can share with you is a thankfulness for change, and an opportunity to focus on something that brings a bit more life to our little house on Neill Ave.

I hope you are well this evening.


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